Thoughtless rambling...

I've noticed lately that every time we start moving forward something comes to pull us back a few steps; whether that's weight gain, an old relationship, or an injury. This is the time to push through the crap and the pain and the heartache and "get 'er done". I am the type to let things get in my way if they sound more fun, even when they don't contribute to my goals. I let people take priority and second guess what I need to do if it means making them happier- even if it's detrimental to what i know i have to do. Don't get me wrong, hurting people who need you should often come before tasks, but there has to be a balance... i fail on the people side. I wish there was a switch to turn off the feelings and the frustrations and the pain and press on. I am SO close to my goal. I have gone from 185 lbs when i very first moved home in April to 152. I can run 2 miles without stopping in 15 to 20 minutes from not being able to run more than 1/2 mile at one time. This is when i "rest on my laurels" and get angry when i'm not progressing. This is when i let past nonsense cloud my purpose and my focus moves from my calling to my present aches, pains, and already achieved goals. Why is it when i get so close i let nonsense (whether that be people or cookies) get in my way and sap my motivation??? I have heard multiple people say "oh 5 to 7 lbs is easy, just get it off". HOW??? I have followed a pretty strict diet, constantly getting more strict. I have been running or working out daily. I had one person tell me that 5 lbs was because God didn't want me to be a marine. Since when did God start preventing healthy weight loss?? or did i miss something in my year at Bible school and years with theology studies at 6 am (ok fair enough, i probably missed a lot during those sessions). Why am I on this emotional roller coaster and letting people break me? Why don't I feel my purpose as strongly as I did? Why does 5 lbs matter so much to the CORP?!? ok rant over. I will now post a recipe to compensate.

Herb Flat Iron Steak

Choose a fairly lean cut from the butcher, i prefer the kind that comes vacuum packed in it's own juices.

Remove steak from packaging and rinse thoroughly, pat down with a dry cloth.
Rub into Steak
1 T Olive oil,
1 1/2 to 2 Tsp Salt
Fresh Ground Black pepper
Fresh Garlic
Let Sit for an hour or so
In a separate bowl combine:
1T olive/sesame/truffle/chili/avocado/coconut oil or butter (all add a different flavor so take your pick)
1-2 T fresh rosemary
1/2 c sweet onion
2 tsp fresh garlic
1/2 c parsley
1/4 c cilantro
1-2 T Oregano
1-2 T Lemon/Greek Thyme
1 tsp salt
Crush together until all the leaves are bruised
Remove steak from grill slightly before it is cooked to your preference- i like mine between rare and med rare so i usually take it off when the center is warm and the outside is well seared. Coat the entire top of the steak with the herb mixture and immediately cover with foil for 10 minutes or until the herbs are wilted. (if you're worried about it getting cold or not cooking enough you can put it on a warming rack for 3-5 minutes WATCH IT CLOSELY so it doesn't over cook). Slice and serve.

Good pairings- Baked potato with garlic butter, sweet potato, walnut cranberry apple goat cheese salad, Blanched broccoli, sweet corn... really anything fresh - preferably springish things.

One day i'll post pictures.

Or how about every month...?

OK So it's been much later than a weekly update.. so much for that pledge!
What has happened since I last posted.... hmmmm.
I started at Cross Fit Junction and have dropped a lot of inches and a little weight. This last month the gym has been doing a "Whole30" competition. Everyone starts with 5 points and then as they cheat lose points, whoever has the most points still in tact at the end wins. Thus far no cheats for me! It hasn't been easy, I've gone to weddings, bachelorette parties (yes, I REALLY could've used a few margaritas before the pole dancing lessons started), family dinners, birthdays, and going away parties but I've managed. There. That's me patting myself on the back.

ANYWAY, when I started this blog, I weighed 174.5 lbs. I am now at 163.5 lbs so still 20 lbs to lose to hit my weight goal for the Marine Corps.

I will post some of the recipes I made during the whole30 hopefully soon... my timing estimates are usually off... by a lot.  :)

Accountability

I have wanted to be a Marine since I was a little girl. In my family a female in the military is unacceptable- so I always pursued different careers. First it was music, I changed my major within music 4 times and finally just settled with Liberal Arts to get a degree and move on. I've looked into wilderness colleges, EMT, nursing, business, accounting, and trying to make my housekeeping job into a viable source of income. I have remained dissatisfied with my occupation. As of a year ago, I decided to actively pursue a career with the Marine Corps. As of 3 months ago I decided I would quit my job and move home to work on school and train. After a rather brutal PT with the local recruiting office I started to feel the gaping whole between my current physical and mental conditioning and where I should be when I go to boot camp. This blog is my accountability. Warning to anyone who may stumble upon it unawares, there will be frustration, probably some very disjointed "spewing" and I'd imagine some self-deprecation on my part. I pledge to myself brutal honesty with myself about how I handled my workouts, mental conditioning, and food for the week. I will note my weight, measurements, and other noteworthy changes on a weekly basis.
So here we go!