Thoughtless rambling...

I've noticed lately that every time we start moving forward something comes to pull us back a few steps; whether that's weight gain, an old relationship, or an injury. This is the time to push through the crap and the pain and the heartache and "get 'er done". I am the type to let things get in my way if they sound more fun, even when they don't contribute to my goals. I let people take priority and second guess what I need to do if it means making them happier- even if it's detrimental to what i know i have to do. Don't get me wrong, hurting people who need you should often come before tasks, but there has to be a balance... i fail on the people side. I wish there was a switch to turn off the feelings and the frustrations and the pain and press on. I am SO close to my goal. I have gone from 185 lbs when i very first moved home in April to 152. I can run 2 miles without stopping in 15 to 20 minutes from not being able to run more than 1/2 mile at one time. This is when i "rest on my laurels" and get angry when i'm not progressing. This is when i let past nonsense cloud my purpose and my focus moves from my calling to my present aches, pains, and already achieved goals. Why is it when i get so close i let nonsense (whether that be people or cookies) get in my way and sap my motivation??? I have heard multiple people say "oh 5 to 7 lbs is easy, just get it off". HOW??? I have followed a pretty strict diet, constantly getting more strict. I have been running or working out daily. I had one person tell me that 5 lbs was because God didn't want me to be a marine. Since when did God start preventing healthy weight loss?? or did i miss something in my year at Bible school and years with theology studies at 6 am (ok fair enough, i probably missed a lot during those sessions). Why am I on this emotional roller coaster and letting people break me? Why don't I feel my purpose as strongly as I did? Why does 5 lbs matter so much to the CORP?!? ok rant over. I will now post a recipe to compensate.

Herb Flat Iron Steak

Choose a fairly lean cut from the butcher, i prefer the kind that comes vacuum packed in it's own juices.

Remove steak from packaging and rinse thoroughly, pat down with a dry cloth.
Rub into Steak
1 T Olive oil,
1 1/2 to 2 Tsp Salt
Fresh Ground Black pepper
Fresh Garlic
Let Sit for an hour or so
In a separate bowl combine:
1T olive/sesame/truffle/chili/avocado/coconut oil or butter (all add a different flavor so take your pick)
1-2 T fresh rosemary
1/2 c sweet onion
2 tsp fresh garlic
1/2 c parsley
1/4 c cilantro
1-2 T Oregano
1-2 T Lemon/Greek Thyme
1 tsp salt
Crush together until all the leaves are bruised
Remove steak from grill slightly before it is cooked to your preference- i like mine between rare and med rare so i usually take it off when the center is warm and the outside is well seared. Coat the entire top of the steak with the herb mixture and immediately cover with foil for 10 minutes or until the herbs are wilted. (if you're worried about it getting cold or not cooking enough you can put it on a warming rack for 3-5 minutes WATCH IT CLOSELY so it doesn't over cook). Slice and serve.

Good pairings- Baked potato with garlic butter, sweet potato, walnut cranberry apple goat cheese salad, Blanched broccoli, sweet corn... really anything fresh - preferably springish things.

One day i'll post pictures.